Ew, math.

Yesterday, I cried myself to sleep.

May sound lame, but I was mainly crying over how I couldn't understand the concept of inverse trig functions. I didn't pay attention in class, so I guess this is the consequence. I also didn't pay attention in chem, but it didn't seem like as big of a deal than math. Math and science are the two subject that my school is nationally recognized for. If I don't/can't do well, do I not live up to the school's reputation?

Also, I was crying because I am terrible at the subject of history. On my midterm, I stupidly put that WWII was the Japanese declaring war on the US, and Pearl Harbour occurred in 1949. I showed my boyfriend the paper a month ago, and he laughed at me. He told this to someone fairly loudly during lunch yesterday, and I almost cried right there. I covered my face in embarrassment as the both of them laughed at my mistake. (I usually do this as like a not-so-embarrassing moment as a joke, but this time, it wasn't a joke.) I still heard laughing, trying to hold back tears. Why am I so terrible at history. Everybody tells me my teacher is the "easiest" teacher for history, and getting the "A" is as easy as pie. They are a bunch of try hard noobs that can get away from my fucking sight.

I dislike my school. Sometimes I wish I could go to that school where their academics are not outstanding so I can feel smart for once.