STAR Testing

This whole week was filled with 5 days of 100 minute STAR testing periods. And it was the most boring shit I have ever done, and probably the most boring thing I have ever done in school since 2nd grade.

Monday and Tuesday was the English STAR. I think that I didn't have to prep for this subject because it is basically long passages with bs questions. But turned out it was a lot harder than I thought, and some of the passages were so lengthy. Ugh. I hate reading.

Wednesday was world history, which I dislike very much. I think my knowledge of history is as limited as...an elementary school child. My failing memory and the way that the facts are going in my mind are probably the main factors why I am bad at this. When I tell someone I am bad at history, I seriously mean it. (Same goes for failing a test, because everybody gets such good grades that a B+ is a major fail. Seriously, some people never consider for the other that are not as smart as they are. Personally, a B+ in history is very good for me.) For example, when I told people I bombed the history midterms, they thought maybe a B or a C. But no, I got a straight F. Because I am so smart at history that I said Pearl Harbour happened in 1949, and the Japanese declared war at the US. So fucking smart. Be fucking jealous. For preparation of the history STAR, I only did 20 questions of the released test questions. I got 12/20, which is a 60%. Fuck. Probably the only reason I scored that much was from really easy process of elimination.

Thursday was life science. I thought this subject was only for people who were taking life science related courses this year, such as biology. But I guess I was wrong. For prep, again I did 20 of the released questions. 13/20. I was again blaming on my bad memory. Lots of the questions were based on biology, which I haven't read about since...maybe June of 2011. Just tells me how screwed I am. I don't get how I can learn anything when I can't even retain shit. How am I going to get a career in the medical field when stuff just flows from one ear and out the other.

Friday, chemistry. I didn't prepare for this at all, because I was busy studying for a math test. There were some questions I learned in 1st semester, which were nice. But once the questions reached to 2nd semester level, I started freaking out. Again, the info I learned in 2nd were just washed out of my brain. Also this semester, I've been kinda blanking out during lectures, so I don't remember what the teacher says. I only have my notes to try to remember, which is probably a bad thing. There were a few questions about radiation, which I obviously guessed. I think I got one question right, but like that is going to make a big difference.

Next Monday and Tuesday is math. I'm not sure if doing just a couple of problems would be ok for prep. Maybe I should, but what is the fucking point if it mostly effects my school and not me.

I don't know why I am letting this being a big deal. Technically I don't even have to study for this shit. So why am I even thinking about fucking studying? I hear colleges don't really use these scores, except for maybe narrowing 2 people down. I think it shows how much I learned this year, but I don't think I have learned much this year, especially in history. Apparently scores do affect teachers, so maybe looking at my score in the future will determine how much I retained from my teacher's teaching style (which I don't think is the best). :\